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Monday, July 21, 2014

then vs now

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The arrival of our fourth occurred last month! In the first couple of weeks, I couldn't help but compare welcoming my first 9 years ago with welcoming our 4th most recently. And none of these has to so with them, but more with myself.

At times I wonder if I'm being the mom I want to be. Am I there for my kids emotionally? Am I teaching the necessary values and virtues? Do I show loyalty to my husband, their father, so that they know the meaning of obedience? Do I keep up with the house, providing a pleasant environment for them to call home? All of these things require a self-mastery I didn't easily recognize in myself at the outset.

Nine years ago, I had one child, and yet I had all of the challenges of experiencing motherhood for the first time; the complete sacrifice of my time, my sleep, and even my meals until a later time. In the past 9 months, people have looked at me funny but also with respect that I was soon to have my fourth. They said they could never do that. I can understand them. I remember that time of initiation into motherhood and how hard it was for me, too, simply because of a lack of experience of giving up many of my own ways and plans, something we all go through. But what I recently came to realize with the arrival of our fourth is how after all of these years, I don't mind as much  all of those little sacrifices. It does indeed get easier in some respects.

The fact that I do all of the same things this time around as I have done with each and every baby I've been so very fortunate to have, but with the ease and peace that comes with experience shows that I have made some  progress toward being the kind of mother I want to be. It isn't as hard for me in many ways which means it's become more of a habit to perform all of these little tasks of love.

None of us will be perfect except in heaven. All we can do is try to give of ourselves the best we know how. It is funny how being open to life's experiences, which for me has meant having four children, helps you on toward your goal, naturally. But that must have be God's plan all along. 

Friday, March 28, 2014

music to my ears

Hello everyone! I am taking a little break while the kids have "rest time" ;) during Spring Break. I happen to have Pandora on the Van Morrison station while catching up on some lovely, eye-catching blogs. But I'm most glad that I happened to let my ear follow Ben E King singing Stand by Me, a song we all know and love, because for a moment I heard Beauty. The melody is nice, the words are wonderful, but what I heard was a soulful voice that can inject meaning by the way a note is sung. What a gift music is to us! I hope you listen to some today that give you that glimpse of heaven!

Up next I'll show you what I've been up to around the house as far as decorating. I think I'm making some headway! Have a great day!

Thursday, March 6, 2014

stuck in a moment

Hello there:). I have friends up North suffering from too much snow and cold. They are literally stuck in their house. Yes, snow can be beautiful, but I feel their pain. I, on the other hand, have warm, sunny days that makes it always feel like Spring. But, my health is such with this pregnancy that I find myself counting down to when life can become more normal again and I can do everything I want and need to again.

Don't we all do that? When we are faced with a situation that stifles our freedom, we balk, we look ahead. I've written about this once a long time ago regarding my cancer experience because it crystallized my feelings and reactions when something greatly limited me. Now my experience is much smaller, and has a happy package growing inside:), but some of the feelings are the same; isolation, frustration, boredom.

So what do you do when you are stuck in a moment? Close your eyes and make a wish that it will end soon? Plow through as best as you can, day after day? I think not, because these are moments when we can really connect with life and the people around us because we are stopped in our tracks and knocked off of our horse, per se.

So, lets:

1. Work. Putting off little things that mount up is a big no no! Do what you can and tell yourself you've done well, even if it is far less than a "normal you" could accomplish.

2. Plan. Make a list of essentials and stick to it. Do what is on the list so you can check it off!

3. Take time to just be with others. You have to just hang out, anyway, right? Might as well make that quality time and enter into another's story and get out of your own.

4. Get creative. My husband has been insisting on my practicing piano more. When I actually follow his advice, it pays off. ;) ;)

Off and running. Hope this is something you can relate to. It's where I am at, so that's what I've got. Besides ordering new short green goblet water glasses ( we don't have a set anymore) from OneKingsLane! HAHA.

Have a great day and have a listen! Stuck in a Moment, U2



Sunday, February 16, 2014

accessories I'd spring for

Spring comes with the new fashion and I spent a few minutes seeing what is out there. I am not looking too much at clothes because I will be buying from different venues this year. ;) But, accessories are something we all can fit into! And I don't buy them unless they really say something. That's what they are for anyway, right? So I saw a few things that I think would fit in any locale - east or west, bohemian or preppy ( the town we live in now is VERY preppy).







( earrings and shoes: Ann Taylor. scarf: Banana Republic)

Many times the necklaces I love are too heavy for my neck. So the next best option is scarves!

Have a great day!

Thursday, February 6, 2014

taking time for baby







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I have veracose (sp?) veins running down my legs. I huff and puff getting up the stairs. I loathe to bend over to pick up something because it cuts off my breathing for a second. My hormones have gone hay-wire.

So, before working out, I took a minute for my baby. I checked out what is going on in utero this week ( 21!!) and thought back to her second ultrasound. She was playing with her umbilical cord at 18 weeks- actually swatting it! I had never seen one of my children do that. When she hears the kids in the car after school, she starts kicking around, already a part of the group. We have very strong personalities in this house and she is not one to let herself go unnoticed. She is one special little lady.

Life is hectic, whether you are having your first or 10th child. It involves different stresses and different demands, but the feeling of being stretched beyond our capacity is there, none-the-less. And thats ok. It's time to sit down, think about the reality of your life, and come to the acute awareness that all that really matters right now is the loves you have in your life; the people and those precious relationships you have with them. You'll figure everything else out.

Have a great day.

Monday, January 27, 2014

Triumph!






These antlers have been on my mind for about 3 years and have been in my possession for almost one year. They have finally been put up in my home! So I think I can mark that as an accomplishment! Now for creating memories and a life here.
You can see a bit of streamers on the piano for my husband's birthday. We are having a couple of new neighbors over for dessert tonight to start warming the house up. I decided that rather than wait to be who we are until we are all more comfortable, just jump right in. Otherwise, it would be a waste of time. Another thing I bring from Miami...

Have a great day!